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Today was preschool day again! I haven't seen my partner child in a week because she was sick. I saw her today and she looked so sad =( I guess she wasn't feeling well still. I took her in to sign her name and I also got to keep a coloring of hers. During snacktime, everyone was eating but she wanted to play. I suggested that we read instead. I really like this book. It's about a teddy bear and what happens when he falls off the bed. It's also a counting book! (WOW two in one)

Then after reading, she decides that she wants to read so I got her some snack (even though I wasn't supposed to..because once they say no..they have to stick with it). She would sometimes smile but she still looked gloomy. Then we went to the shamrock table where she glued words that she knew on a shamrock. She knows 9 words (is, on, in, the, and, my, a, and some other ones I don't remember =) ) Then we went to play with noisemakers and dinosaurs.

Today I got pushed in my butt and then the kid ran away =( I was so sad. He doesn't speak english either so I couldn't discipline him. I don't like kids that are bad!! Anyways, it was nice to see Brianna smile even though she wasn't feeling well. Made me happy to see that she was having fun!

Then I came home, made some beans, showered, and then it was off to general meeting. Thank you to Alex who came to help me carry the jello to the meeting. We totally looked like alcoholics carrying 3 trays of jello shots. Then the meeting started. Nina made awesome cupcakes (so CUTE!) During the meeting, the board was so cute! They made a video for James to thank him for an awesome year and I was super teary and couldn't help myself.

Sidenote: I am super sentimental. If you know me, then you know that I pretty much keep everything. I have movie ticket stubs from middle school LOL (the print is so faded, you cant even see it anymore) But yeah, I was super teary because when I see things, I almost always relate it to something else that makes me emotional. I don't know if that makes sense..like when I see a movie..I will relate it in someway to myself and my life. If it is a happy scene, then happiness or if it is a sad scene, I am sad..etc.











So in this case, I saw the video for James and I was just super happy that people recognized all his hard work. One thing that I love a lot is letting people know when they do good things or accomplish something or simply if they are awesome. James totally and whole heartedly dedicated this past year to making the club what it is today. The video made me flashback to all the hard work that I and other board members put in one year ago and two years ago. It's not easy being a board member and it's crazy the amount of time you put in and the countless sleepless nights. Anyways, I digressed. I just wanted to say that the video was awesome. I am glad they did something for James because he totally deserves it. Made me think back on the two years before this one. All that=cry/tears of happiness.









Then James gave his goodbye. Way to go, 08-09 Board! Then it was the moment that everyone was waiting for...Chair Announcements. Talk about heartbreaking. I was sooo scared for everyone in the room that applied. I mean, so many dedicated members, so many awesome, wonderful people. I am sure everyone would mke a great chair, but there are only so many you can have (11 to be exact) I am happy for all those on Board, you will go on a wonderful journey and love/hate/hate/love Circle K. =)

To all those who didn't make it...it's okay. I mean being a member rocks! You are catered to...raffle prizes..don't have to drop from projects..etc. When it all comes down to it, it is about Community Service. I know I often lose sight of that...but seriously and simply, all it comes down to is what are you doing to help serve those in need. You don't need to be a board member to make an impact in the lives of those who are in need. I wish I could re-do my time this year and really focus on the important things like contributing something to the world. Luckily I have Jumpstart where I can see the progress of Brianna week after week.

Anyways, it was a sad night..then James had to dig through crap for his gavel. I was in everyone's faces about James' dinner party/banquet for his bday. His present came in today! I'm so excited and can't wait to give it to him!!!

I was really sad that I stepped outside to record something and when I came back, the jello shots were distributed and it wasn't the whole "cheers to finishing" that I had wanted it to be. Ugh..I was annoyed..but I guess I expected too much. So I just stuffed my face with jello.

Then on to scrapboozing party (Lol..jk) I managed to do 1 page in the 2-3 hours that we were there. Sigh** but the scrapbook is looking amazing. We left and then went to get some boba and ran into Joe (again!) We ran into him last night too. Then came back and now I am not doing work like I should. I have a research paper to do and I don't want to do it. I make poor decisions. But I really like the fact that I am getting to know people better (or at least I feel that way). I really want to get to know more people..like deeper stuff. I know I posted something about not having that connection with people and feeling like it was too late. But I know it's not too late! I will try to make more friends before I leave Cal.








And that transitions me to...I am sad. Super sad about my upcoming graduation. It's been four years and I am used to this dirty place I now call home. I still remembered that I seriously cried all the way up to norcal (like 6 hours in the car..I cried all the way). Then I cried for another month or two. I feel like that is going to happen again. I am scared that friends will be lost due to distance. I don't know if I can make new friends. Everyone is going back to socal...and I will be in SF..without my family..and some friends. I know that there will be people staying but I fear that without Circle K, without the close proximity of being in Berkeley, our friendships will not survive. I hope I am wrong. Just know that I will cry...at DCON, at Banquet, at Graduation, at everything. But I will just keep smiling...even if I have tears. Just keep smiling!







I feel like I have insomnia. But I am sleepy. I just sleep late.